Thursday, November 12, 2009
From DAY ONE,
you are my only one
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10:01 PM
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Wednesday, November 11, 2009
说好了,我是会等你的.
你却一去不回头了,留着我傻傻的等着,
你说你要我怎么在相信你呢?(:
说好了,我们会在一起的,
你却牵起了她的手,对她说我只是个朋友,
你说你要我如何反应呢?(:
说好了,你是爱我的,
你却回头对她的嘴唇给了个吻,说她是你最爱的,
你说你要我如何在亲吻你呢?(:
说好了,不再骗我的,
你却也不再说实话了,对我和她说都是你要的唯一,
你说你要我怎么不再流泪呢?(:
说好了,不伤害我的,
你却一次又一次的刺伤我的心,说不是故意的,
你说你要我如何依靠你呢?(:
说好了,宝贝你是唯一的,
你却不再记得我的名字了,只说宝贝是最好的,
你说你要我说什么呢?(:
说好了,不会背叛我的,
你却在最后说不想让你哭的,只让我发现我是多余的,
你说你要我怎么留在你身边呢?(:
说好了,宝贝你是我的,
你却现在不再里我了,只说真的对不起了.
你说你要我怎么不恨你呢?(:
我想对你说,
你是我真正爱过的人.
也是我最恨的男人.
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11:27 PM
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was scrolling around the webbies just now,
till I came across some pretty meaningful pages.
It set me thinking about some stuff.
Like hey, what the fuck am I really doing everyday?
am I really accepting fate?
or what the fuck can I do to change?
and,
the worst topic.
DEATH"
I hate it.
cause I don't know what it is.
and Its permanent
Its the only shit that could get me in fear though..
haha pathetic.
and...
you know.
I don't like talking about my problems to anyone
so please.
smile and make me smile too.
don't worry for me (:
I just wanted to be better.
for anyone.
for me?
just trying to catch sight of my humanity.
there's a guy who make me lost it.
and I'm finding it by myself.
Like always.
I really love hanging out.
I really hate myself.
cause I can never be true to it.
why?
cause I don't even know it.
you know,
just chatting with you makes me smile
just having a listening ear make me happy
so I don't care whether you are lying to me
whatever you have done.
as long as you guys always be there for me.
I am happy.
what I really want is your company.
not your money.
get this straight.
I hate being...
alone.
all the time.
missing you, all of you.
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10:54 PM
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Wednesday, October 21, 2009


dying to want these!!!
anyone help me pay buy credit card?
I'll pay you cash! promise!
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9:27 PM
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A body without A heart
Just an empty shell, no longer willing to love anymore,
In fear of hurting anyone, cause she has no heart to put in any of them,
through only 15 years she learn that Its OK to Have expectations but don't put your hopes In them, Its OK to be nice But don't trust anyone.
Its OK to be anything just on the Surface, so that you wouldn't get hurt.
She would never have a broken heart as there wasn't one to begain with,
her empty shell is only stored with rage and sadness.
On the surface like theres nothing wrong,
Lying through her eyes not a teardrop when shes hurt over and over again.
She HAtes so much that Its No longer suffocating to bare.
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8:09 PM
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Fuck you la, I go out kana scold, I dun go out also kana scold, I talk kana scold I dun talk also kana scold, I use comp kana scold I watch tv kana scold I buying stuff also kana scold, I nv go shopping ALSO kana scold, I do left kana scold I do right also kana scold I do nothing also kana scold WTF SIA
U LIKe SCoLd me so MuCh for fuck, making my life worst isit you fucker I Fucking HATE HATE YOU!!!!
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8:04 PM
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Want buy stuff from internet also so difficult FUCK LA.
you happy liao right CB everything also want scold me what I owe you sia,
Asking only will die isit,fuck you think you older big fuck ah.
I fuck care I don't have an income,
I know wad I doing can aready you Fucking hell Fuck me with your bullshit for Fuck
also not using your money you Fuck care me for what.
You think I spend your Fucking hard earn money I pay back everything once I get a job and wouldn't FUcking owe you a cent you happy now PCB.
Tell you what I doing only you Give me a Big Fuck of Bullshit
normally don't talk to you you also think fucking hell what the Fuck I doing.
Don't expect me to tell you any Fucking crap again, Fuck out of my sight you Fucking duo.
I fucking hate my life cause of you this Fucking Bitch is inside it.
Fucking tired from school still need listen to your Fucking Crap
every Fuck that goes wrong the 1st Thing is always my fault
Fucking hell at least I don't COMPLAIN TO ANYONE WHAT THE FUCK HAPPEN WHEN THINGS GOES WRONG.
AND EVEN I UNDERSTAND THIS FUCKING SHIT I DON't UNDERSTAND WHY A FUCKING BITCH OF YOUR AGE DON'T.
MY Fault EVEry FuckING piECE OF SHIT THAT HAPPEN IN YOUR LIFE IS MY FUCKING FAULT. YOU FUCKING HAPPY NOW?
I HATe AlL thiS FUCking ShIt And Im STILL ON HOLD OF MY SHITY LifE,
FuCK HelL I lIve At my OwN COST SO WHY ThE HeLL yOu Want FucKing FucK in to My FUcKed Up LIfE.
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7:36 PM
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